Sunday, December 7, 2008

Blue Christmas?

It may seem like it but I really haven't fallen off the face of the earth. I have had many ups and down over the past month or so. Right now I seem to be in the middle of a down.

My hubby and I are celebrating our 8th Christmas together. While we weren't married for that first Christmas, it still marks another Christmas with the present I want most of all not "under the tree." I fill each Christmas by doing Sub-4-Santa and buying gifts for me nieces and nephews that are way too expensive and over the top....trying to make up for the emptiness that I feel knowing that I may never have my own children to spoil on Christmas morning.

I have been really trying not to do the "poor me" thing, but it becomes harder and harder as each Christmas passes.

1 comment:

organize-n-mama said...

You may not have a baby of your own at this time, but you have several nieces and nephews that love you. You have the oppertunity to be the worlds coolest aunt and uncle. I know that my aunt was the one I turned to when I didn't feel comfortable talking to my mom, I always knew she would understand me. You are a great person and I know you are not a mushy person. But we love you.