Friday, March 5, 2010

Pakin' Up Is Hard To Do

I want to thank everyone for all of their kind words and support. I was beyond touched with all of your comments. I haven't had a chance to individually thank everyone, but I did want to at least thank everyone here.

I have been spending my days this week packing up all of my possessions and preparing to move. I will be staying with my in-laws until I can find a place of my own. This is a really scary time for me because I am having to let go of a lot, including control of what happens next. I know that I have mentioned our tough financial situation before...well, now with my hubby gone I have no choice but to file BK. I tried everything I could to figure out another option because I feel like I am taking a cop-out. My future is completely unknown. My biggest fears are loosing my wedding ring and loosing my camera in the BK process. Those two items are my life lines.

On the spiritual side I am finding that I have grown so much closer to the Lord through this. I constantly have a prayer in my heart and even though he called my husband home earlier than I could have ever imagined, he has been blessing my life and taking care of me ever since. He has never left me alone, and for that I am truly grateful.